A year ago today we launched this page, Jayden. In a lot of ways it was a homage to you, to the inspiration you have been for me. This day reminds me a lot of the day you were born. Gloomy, wet, melancholy. That was all BEFORE I got the call you were coming. The juxtaposition of my emotions was overwhelming. While I was terrified, I was also so very excited, perhaps naively, that I was about to be a dad. What a journey it has been since that fateful morning.
You have taught me so much, about love and hope, about myself, about being a husband and father. While I never wanted to be a preemie parent, I cannot imagine any other life. The things you do, how you have grown, how you manage to make me laugh and lose my hair on a daily basis is mind-boggling. The love I posses for you cannot be quantified, for it is infinite.
We have watched you progress from a fragile beginning to the amazing little boy you are now. Mommy and I have seen you at your very best, and at your very worst. Much the same could probably be said of the two of us as well. Sometimes we wrestle with the day to day battle of getting you to listen, respond, and interact properly, which at your age is a struggle in itself. Coupled with speech delays, we have had our fair share of meltdowns. The most important thing to know is that we love you so much and we are so very proud of you.
What does the future hold for you? To be honest, I'm not sure. While I have a vision and hopes of where life will lead you when you are old enough to make independent decisions, by no means will I ever let that interfere with your own path. I want you to have dreams, to have goals, and to aspire to do good things. Would I love it if you wanted to play sports? Of course! Would I love it if you excelled in the classroom? Undoubtedly. At the end of the day, all I'll ever ask of you is wherever you path leads you, be passionate about it. Love and support are two things you will ALWAYS have. Whether you want to run a Fortune 500 company or work in a warehouse. Whether you want to be a pro athlete or a starving artist, love what you do.
Daddy had a learning disability when he was younger. You see, I struggled with taking ideas and putting them to paper. Writing is one of my biggest passions now. Let me assure you can overcome any obstacle, don't let naysayers or expectations dictate your path. Anything you put your mind to us possible, and I am so very excited for what the future has in store for you.
I love you so much,
|My hopes and dreams for you? They're SOOO BIG!|