|Evidence of how far we've come.|
By Joel Brens
Yes, I said too fast.
We have had our fair share of doubts, fear, and uncertainty as parents of a one time 3lb. 6 oz. baby. I spent quite a few dark moments in the NICU questioning whether I had the chops to properly care for a medically frail child.
So many nights I thought:
"I hope he gets stronger soon"
"I hope he starts ______ tomorrow"
It's so easy to get caught up in all things relating to care for your preemie, that you forget to enjoy just being a parent. Every day your child is getting just a bit bigger, just a bit stronger.
Here I stand, staring at a tree, not seeing the forest.
We've taken thousands of pictures of Jayden. I spend time at least once a week going through those pictures, reliving memories and moments. It reminds me of two very important things:
1. I'm reminded of how far we've come
2. More importantly, I'm reminded that those moments are merely snapshots of memories, that those stages of his life are gone.
Of course I enjoy his independence, but I'm not in any hurry for him to grow up.
Slow down, good buddy. Daddy wants to enjoy the moment.