Tuesday, August 21, 2012

Slow Down, Good Buddy

Evidence of how far we've come.

This may sound like the ultimate hypocrisy from the parent of a preemie, but sometimes I feel like Jayden is growing up too fast.

Yes, I said too fast.

We have had our fair share of doubts, fear, and uncertainty as parents of a one time 3lb. 6 oz. baby. I spent quite a few dark moments in the NICU questioning whether I had the chops to properly care for a medically frail child.

So many nights I thought:
"I hope he gets stronger soon"
"I hope he starts ______ tomorrow"

It's so easy to get caught up in all things relating to care for your preemie, that you forget to enjoy just being a parent. Every day your child is getting just a bit bigger, just a bit stronger.

Here I stand, staring at a tree, not seeing the forest.

We've taken thousands of pictures of Jayden. I spend time at least once a week going through those pictures, reliving memories and moments. It reminds me of two very important things:

1. I'm reminded of how far we've come

2. More importantly, I'm reminded that those moments are merely snapshots of memories, that those stages of his life are gone.

Of course I enjoy his independence, but I'm not in any hurry for him to grow up.

Slow down, good buddy. Daddy wants to enjoy the moment.

1 comment:

  1. This is beautiful, Joel and reminds me so much of my same confused thoughts and feelings about Andie growing up!